Tuesday, December 27, 2005

College Boy and High School Boys

I have come to find out this past quarter of college that it doesnt matter what age they are boys are all the same. the only real difference is college boys are more blunt and a little more outspoken. while highschool boys just take what they can get and dont really say what they want and definitely dont just try and take it. I have had stories from my friends, stories of my own, things that I have just seen. I have learned that boys will say anything to either get in your pants or to stay on your good side. During the summer I had a guy that went from my best friend to me and back to my best friend. Now there is nothing wrong with my best friend cause she is beautiful, bright, fun and anything that is completely awesome that you can think of, any guy would be lucky to be with her and or just hang out with her, she is just that awesome. but after I didn’t want him he went back to her and I don’t mean that in a bad way at all cause there is absolutely nothing wrong with her. Now what I don’t understand is that he went back to her when I stopped wanting anything to do with him. So wouldn’t that seem like he is just using her, but what happens when he tells her a bunch of stuff that isn’t really true. She believes it and well doesn’t have any reason not to. Well they have an on going thing when he goes off to college, she doesn’t stop doing what she wants but it stops her from enjoying some things. Well he comes back for break and me being nice because she likes him, we start talking at a party. Well he tells me some things about how he wants to end it. He told me that he tried to end it before he left, that he tried to make it apparent that he didn’t want to go to college with her or well whatever they were. Now I understand the whole I don’t want to go to college with a girlfriend or boyfriend kind of thing, especially if you are so far away. But it wasn’t the fact that he wanted to end it, it was how he said it and the things he said. He told her things about how he missed her and what not. They talked all the time on the phone. But then he comes back and we start talking and he says things like he fell for me once and so on, he says things like he wanted to end it before he left, so in other words it was like everything he said to her while he was gone was a lie. Now when he talked to her, he denied it. So lets see, now I dislike him even more cause that told me that he completely lied to her and he was just saying stuff so that he could get on my good side or to get with me. But the sad part is she doesn’t know who to believe a guy that she just meet this summer or well her bestfriend. Now even though I don’t like him, doesn’t mean that I would just say shit for her not to hang out with him or whatever. Now just because I don’t like him doesn’t mean I would do something evil like that cause I know she cared for him a lot. But he told me some things once that just don’t make me believe anything he has said to her, I haven’t told her about it but that is always in the back of my mind. He swears on everything that they had that he didn’t say some of those things, but I don’t think in his mind that they ever really had much according to what he said to me the other night. I love this girl to death don’t get me wrong, but I want to beat this guy that manipulated her. I believe that he really did because I was extremely manipulated earlier this year so I know what it sounds like and also what words you say and how you say them to get what you want, I have first hand experience unfortunately. Now you can say what you want and think what you want, cause I know that I cant change anything, but what I am asking is for you to think about it. You may not believe me and just do what you want, cause I feel that you don’t believe me. But why would I lie about something like this, it doesn’t benefit me any. Now he has plenty of reasons to lie about it. But why would he hide you for so long? That really doesn’t make sense, I get from the parents but from friends too. He doesn’t want anyone to know about you….well if I were a guy I would want the whole world to know about you cause its like trying to hide a huge diamond ring on your finger, because you glitter and sparkle and are just to beautiful and wonderful of a thing to hide. So ask yourself this one question… do I deserve to be treated as I am nothing? Or that I am a horrible awful thing that no one should know about? Well all I say is think about it and well that no matter what I love you.
Your Big Sis,
Marisa