so i have had a lot of problems with friends lately and its starting to look like maybe it has something to do with me. i expect to much from people? i thought it was reasonable to think that your best friends would tell you when they got her or in what they were donig when your in the same town. i mean i might be wrong and others might think differently on this but i would feel hurt if i was the who was left out of it, when i dont even a mile away. im just so sick of being the one who is always wrong, who always gets the shaft! im just so done trying and giving so much of myself to people just to get nothing in return but the shit. i deserve better than to be treated as second best. some things will never change and even if you say something, it doesnt mean anything cause you could just be saying it just to say it. i want action not just words! its like people will say things just to make the situation better but they never mean it or they dont change. its a vicous circle and i want out of it. then the argument always comes up but we have been friends for some years how can you do that. well im not getting anything out of it that is good for me, causes me pain and stress. those are not the people you should be stressing about they should be the people you turn to when you are stressed, the shoulder you cry on, your secret keeper, your second half, your partners in crime. i just dont understand anymore, i just feel as if i cant do anything right and everything i try to do or change, just seems to back fire or give second chances and even more chances on top of that. i get the same result. NOTHING! i guess i should try and just not care.