I wrote this is a really long time ago and decieded to post it....

Some day ill find someone who truly is going to be with me and only me.. Next dude I'm come across I will not trust... Called me his one and only and that ended up being a lie... For 7 months he has lied to me, for what? Why couldn't he be real? Don't ask something of someone else if you can't do the same. He abused my trust... Don't worry about her is what he said to me... And all along I really should of been. You can't trust how people are they just are that way for reasons you can't explain. Maybe one day things will be different, ill find that one guy to prove me wrong. Said he was different... That was a lie he's a player just like everyone said. Its suppose to make it ok that he fucked a girl cause she is a ho, but what does that make me? I don't think he ever had any intentions of ever being with me. He doesn't answer questions like that cause I guess there is no point cause I'm done with him. But am I really? I don't even know what I want.. I would be stupid as ever to give him another chance, people would be so mad at me and I won't tell them anything about it. I'm not tripping. When will it end? Will it end with him? Should I just say goodbye to it all.. To everything I trusted and let get close to me. I trust him even though he still lied to me, I shouldn't be so forgiving. I really should move on, its time. Sometimes you got to let go of something you have worked on so hard to keep. Guess he wasn't worth it in the end he didn't treat me right I deserve better, even though I know that I still want him. Maybe its what I can't have I can't resist. There are so many fish in the sea. I wonder how much of what I was told was true.