so the past couple of weeks everything has been building up, even though they might be big or small. From people having their own issues and needing help with them to graduation and what i am doing next year. a lot of my entries lately have not been very happy, i have been very confused and lost. But i had a savior- Dorothy my twin, we had a grand centennial night and you guys dont know what that is but it helped me come back. i am not all the way back yet but i am well on my way, i just needed a jump start from someone i know i can trust and that knows me really well. Cause i think some people thought that they did but really they dont know me at all. i am finding all the things that i have lost about myself in the last month. just talking to dorothy made me realize, that the person i have been being isnt the real me. i shut myself off from the world cause some people have attacted me and by some people i mean more than one. i know some dont know that they are doing it and that is fine, i am not holding anything against them. as far as i am concerned now, i'm happy. i am happy with everything that has happened to me thus far and i have no regrets about anything. none about last night and none today and hopefully none in the days to come. i know people care about me, that was proved last night and i already knew that. i had to find some way to get back up my horse. a centennial chat was just what i needed, to sort through everything and learn from it. I had to let everything go and figure out why it upset or what actually did or well who did. i had to forgive and forget but somethings i cant let go, somethings just hurt to bad, and somethings arent small, maybe small to other people but it means a lot to me. everyone feels differently about things and if that is how they feel you shouldnt tell them that you are right and they are wrong. people react differently to different things and thats what makes life so interesting and stressful at times. i just wanted to say that i am finding myself again the old me, that i loved and nothing is going to stop me. Anyways i just want to say that I HEART DOGGY! MY TWIN! i would be lost without you!

Marisa