Emotions

Some emotions are not a good mixes like anger, confusion and sadness. You think you have things figured out and then someone comes along and tries to tell you different. Either you get even more mad or you change to the opposite side of thinking. At first i was being pushed back and forth by what someone said and then it just started to piss me off. Maybe i am being hypocrit because i post my feelings on here and maybe that isnt fair. But when you are trying to make a decision, saying some stuff just doesnt really help either it makes them reaffirm there feelings or it changes them back for the moment. It sucks when people are just trying to help but really it just makes it worse and doesnt help at all. maybe i just take things the wrong way but maybe it helps me make my decision.
I might be to indecisive to make it myself and having people push me or tell me stuff is what helps me make it. Or maybe it pushes me the wrong direction cause the minute i calm down enough to think, so one else has something to say on it, which just changes my mind once again. Basically it comes down to whether i can deal with it or not. i dont care for excuses, whether you mean to do something or not it still happened and that doesnt change anything for me. i'm sorry but what am i suppose to do open back to get hurt again, i dont think so.

marisa